"it's all worth it"

There are certain things everyone tells you (and gives you when you have a baby) most of the time the information is useless. No, I do not need anymore adorable socks/hats/mittens/blankets. Yes, I in fact know that I will never sleep again/ my life is completely changing/ feed them every 2-3 hours.

What I didn't hear was: loud noises (like the vacuum) calm her down/ babies tend to have projectile poop/ sex (sorry world) will never feel the same again. I understand how it will "all be worth it" once she grows up but people need to be more honest with their advice. How was I supposed to figure out these things alone? We have a noise machine that is now up really loud in her room so she always has some white noise. It is genius! She sleeps longer and isn't startled awake due to the TV or anything.

When B was born, I had about 17 packages of diapers. I thought "wow this is fantastic!". Little did I know, babies can grow super fast. I have an overflow of the wrong size of diapers. I plan to squeeze my little fat baby into size on diapers until her poop won't stay in anymore (oh wait!) because I still have six more packs!

Lastly, I cannot decide if I should save all of her baby stuff or pack it up and give it to someone else. I know plenty of people who need it but hey, I may want another kid in a couple years. I have so much stuff that it could help someone a lot but at the same time, I don't want to buy it all again.

Sorry this post was sort of random, my thoughts are really jumbled today and I can hardly think straight.

Brooklyn!!

My baby (6 week old ah!) is amazing. She is so much fun to be around. She (real) smiled at me last night for the first time! I finally feel like a mother. It sunk in and I am happy.

But I must admit, being back at work and school has made such a difference to being a mom. It allows me time to think about her and miss her as well as give me some adult conversations that don't revolve around my daughter.

Overall, things are going well.