Arizonaaaa

So as of 7/21/09... my current location has been at or around Bullhead City, AZ. Two of my most favorite people are the reason for my extended stay here. It has been fabulous. Like my daily plans have been: sleep as late as possible (which most days is only like nine or ten for me) then get up, lounge by either the pool in the back yard or the River. We eat and just relax. Nights consist of talking, reading, or watching movies while eating cookie dough. It is so much fun. I haven't laughed this much practically all summer. I wish I could give like specific examples about what has been so humorous; however, I can't remember half of them.

After I head home, I will have less than two weeks to get everything ready. I need to plan outfits and get ready for Rush and pack to move into the dorms. I can honestly say though, that I am more nervous for Rush than I am for the dorms. I am not the typical girl who would ever enjoy being put on display and "chosen" after only short conversations. How can someone make that type of life commitment after only short conversations. Ask then, why am I doing it? Because I want the experience. I want to be able to say, "Yeah I went through fall recruitment and decided it wasn't for me" I don't want to be too afraid and not do it for that reason. Plus, I could found a house and be perfectly happy with that decision. Anything is possible right?

in a week...

In a week... so much can change. I am like finally settled and happy.

"you always say that at the beginning of a new relationship"-Tatie

He asked me out. I made a slight joke about the whole situation... he was being very serious. I said yes.

We haven't really discussed much. No specific details have been hashed out. What I do know... 

-He fully trusts me (I even have a few examples of that from only a weeks time)

-He always answers my questions and tells me things he knows I'd want to know

-He won't try and talk me into anything

-He stands up for me

-I am comfortable around him

-He SUCKS at texting me back (slightly drives me crazy)

-We are a pretty good balance... nothing serious yet though.

It is really odd. This is someone I've known/had a crush on off and on for like three years. We met in high school yet we started dating AFTER graduation... it doesn't make sense to me either.

I leave on Tuesday, July 21. We will be arriving back home around August 2.

He leaves August 1. 

Oh well, I'm not too worried.

To every ex: :)

'Cause I'll be there, in the back of your mind
From the day we met 'til you were making me cry
And it's just too bad, you've already had the best days
The best days of your life

Ain't it a shame?
A shame that everytime you hear my name
Brought up in a casual conversation
You can't think ...straight

And ain't it sad?
You can forget about what we had
Take a look at her and do you like what you see?
Or do you wish it was me

CHORUS:
'Cus I'll be there, in the back of your mind
From the day we met to the very last night
And it's just too bad, you've already had the best days
The best days of you life

And does she know?
Know about the times you used to hold me
Wrapped me in your arms and how you told me
I'm the... the only one

I heard about
Yeah, someone told me once, when you were out
She went a little crazy ran her mouth about me
Ain't jealousy funny?

CHORUS
'Cus I'll be there, in the back of your mind
From the day we met to the very last night
And it's just too bad, you've already had the best days
The best days of you life

...with me was a fairytale love
I was head-over-heals 'til you threw away "us"
And it's just too bad you've, already had the best days
The best days of your life

I heard you're gonna get married
Have a nice little family
Live out my dreams with someone new

But, I've been told that a cheater
Is always a cheater
I've got my pride, and she's got you...

CHORUS
'Cus I'll be there, in the back of your mind
From the day we met 'til you were making me cry
And it's just too bad, you've already had the best days
The best days of your life...

Of your life
Oh, oh, yeah
You're gonna think of me
You're gonna think of me in your liiiiiiiiiiiife
Oh, oh, yeah
It's a shame, it's a shame...It's a shame

blur

The past few weeks have gone by in a blur. There was nothing noteworthy, yet still exciting in their own right. 

• I came in and got out of yet another relationship with N (a mix of the stupidest and smartest decision of my summer) So I can happily say, I am fully over that entire situation.
• Worked
• Went to a few fun parties :)
• Started actually talking to J!!  :::::

J: I would totally date you. Youre fucking awesome. 

and  

J: Indeed. No i actually enjoy spending time with you and all my friends like you. And i dont see you as the clingy type*

THIRTY NINE DAYS UNTIL MOVE IN/RUSH!

FIFTEEN DAYS UNTIL I LEAVE FOR A VACATION IN ARIZONA!

*NOTE: I did warn J about my high maintenance-ness!!!